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My roomates and I
It is now going on a month since the results for the job I applied for should have been released. Yet here I sit writing this post with no idea what is going on, or if I’m still in the running for the job or not. All I have to go on is that I’ve gotten two e-mails saying, “You’re application is still under review”.
This whole ordeal is beyond stressful, and as put a pause on my life. I want this job so bad it hurts. I’ve worked so hard to make this dream come true, and spent two years waiting for this moment. However at this point, I would be grateful to get an e-mail even telling me I didn’t get the job; because then I could cry my eyes out, and move on with my life. Not knowing anything is much worst then being told “no”. Even more so when you’re in the processes of getting your life together.
I’m not even able to register for classes at my new university, because I’m not sure if I’ll be an online student or not. It doesn’t help my situation either that my current job is also on the line, because of the delay in results.
My current manger is pregnant so I have a limited amount of time to inform her if I’m leaving for a new job or not. Soon she’ll have to make the decision if she wants to keep me around, and risk me potentially quieting while she’s on maternity leave. Which would leave our whole branch even more under staffed, and cut her maternity leave short.
Believe me, I hear you, I’m trying to “Get my shit together” more than you know. I’m just making a detour to chase after a dream.
Keep it to yourself
Having you around makes me happy. Not as much as it use to, but it gets the job done. I’m a master at keeping myself under control, I don’t want to mess this up, I don’t want the joy I feel from your company to fade.
So I shut-up and enjoy us time. I keep my eyes down around you, I don’t want to mistakenly catch a glimpse of my reflection through your eyes.
I don’t need any reminders that the person being reflected isn’t good enough for you, far from even second best. I don’t want to see my flaws, or get lost in depressing thoughts about how I wish I could change.
No, I just want to sit here with you and enjoy the day. The only thing I want to notice or think about is how all the colors around me seem brighter today.
THE ELECTRIC RUN“The Electric Run is more show and participation-art than run. One million watts of light and sound transforms the 5k course into an electric wonderland.”
I was hesitant about sighing up, I almost backed out 4 times, but from fear my roommate might kill me; I saw it through to the end. Well it was worth it! This was definitely the most fun I’ve had exercising in the middle of the night. The music was amazing, the people were awesome, and the track was beautiful. One of the highlights about this 5k was just when we thought everything was over there was a rave waiting to greet us at the finish line. Simply brilliant!
- Lana Del Rey
- Young and Beautiful
- The Great Gatsby Soundtrack
- 81 plays
“Young and Beautiful” (from The Great Gatsby Soundtrack) - Lana Del Rey